Cher released the first installment of a planned two-part memoir Tuesday, “Cher: The Memoir, Part One,” spanning roughly the first half of the 78-year-old entertainer’s life, with anecdotes about a marriage to Sonny Bono she called “ loveless ” that led her to consider suicide at the height of their television fame in the 1970s.

Though Cher and Sonny Bono’s marriage lasted less than a decade, their musical hits endured. Yet Cher details in her new memoir that the success of her creative partnership with her late husband wasn’t equally shared.

Cher is referring to her trans son, Chaz, by his "deadname" – the name he used before transitioning – in her new memoir, Cher: The Memoir, Part One. The first volume of her memoir chronicles her childhood, marriages and the early years of her music career.